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GIBTK team staffer, Nam wrote this a month or so ago and I am late in getting this out. She felt strongly about getting her "feelings" in writing. Guess we are getting some traction in our emotional health program...
Here is Nam's note'
"Emotional Health changes my mind and life
This is my feelings after attending today's Emotional Health class at office. I have attended many lessons in the teaching but what I feel today urges me to write something, to express out and to say thank you to Lanh, this program manager; all the staffs; the house mothers and GIBTK in general to give me a chance to learn these wonderful knowledge to my job and my personal life.
Today, we reviewed the lessons "How to deal with anger" and "How to correct kids". I read the theories about the lessons before and I even prepared a lesson about some healthy ways to deal with anger for the kids at Carmela's Home.
However, to my honest, I applied only about 50% of the knowledge to work. I could see sometimes I got mad of the kids and the house mothers when they did not do things right. Even though I reminded myself to calm down whenever things happened, I was not actually healthy in dealing with my own anger in some vital situations.
Now, when I look back, there is a memorable experience to remind me about my unhealthy deal with the ex-house mother before. What a lesson! So guilty. So sorry for this.
Today was a quite hard day for me because I had to do some role plays for the teaching. When we practiced, I saw myself there. How powerful the role plays gave to me! It touched my heart and soul when I did them with my entire enthusiast. I asked myself quietly when I took a nap after lunch time, "Nam, what would have happened if you had dealt with problems as you played today?" and "What would have got if you knew how to deal with yourself more healthily?". The answers came immediately and directly. "You learned it, but you also forgot it." "You said you applied it, but all is a lie." How tough! I really got the lesson today.
Today's lesson made me remember things happening last night at my own home. My husband and I had a big argument by a silly reason. We shouted to each other and I could not control myself and my words were horrible to him. Our relationship was at the edge of the hell just because both of us dealt badly with our emotion. When I found out some misunderstandings appearing around us, I came up with a courageous decision. "We must talk about this problem clearly and healthily in the peaceful atmosphere." Fortunately, our courage and love won the negative sides in our souls.
As last, I applied a little thing from what I learned at work to my life and my private relationships. At this moment, my heart calls back Tam's saying about Emotional Health program. "It is not only good for your work here at GIBTK but also for your personal emotion and life." It works for me for sure.
I went through many kinds of emotion while writing this. Pleased to finish all the role-plays successfully, guilty to myself and to admit the wrong way I thought, happy to realize I finally got the thing and thankful for being equipped these magical stuffs. Maybe somehow I transformed what I learned from brain to heart. That's great!"
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